To tell the truth.
I am far from loving properly the things I ought to love. And I don’t like feeling so busy and chaotic that I seem to have lost the ability to feel my own feelings or hear my own thoughts. I need a day in the woods. A night under stars. Utter silence, within and without. [...]
The Sirens
Memory is my Siren song blink. I can’t remember very much from my early childhood. Images flash in my mind and I’m hesitant to claim them as memories, unsure whether or not they’re really mine or sponged up from novels, movies or old photobooks. blink. Standing in knee deep swishy grass, an endless sea of [...]
Once more, with feeling…
Out of the habit We used to visit every other year or so, strategically taking advantage of the Christmas break or summer holidays. Germany was magical. The Gummi bears perched on my pillow in the guest room when I arrived and a never-ending supply of Brötchen at breakfast kept my mouth busy, but left my [...]
to tell the truth…
it was an unsettling sensation the earthquaking realization that the monsters of my youth were really puppets put to use by adults who thought to tell the truth with a thousand lies and airtight alibis. in the end, perhaps, they are more confused and had much more to lose than i. ———————————— lately i’ve been [...]
courage by surprise
alternate title: coming full circle: thoughts of a high school debate team drop-out. In high school, my family life was pretty out of hand. The bits I care to mention publicly would include the fact that my mom suffered from a health condition which involved 6 surgeries and multiple trips into downtown Houston over the [...]
what NOT to do when you’re tired…
Not necessarily in this order: -Take an out-of-town trip to see family. Savor the good parts, avoid the huge swaths of emotionally exhausting bits. (we’ll use these later on!) -Arrive back and say ‘yes’ to every possible engagement/task/job offered. Remember that you have the first show for your band that week. Avoid the sense of [...]
Friday Sprichwort
I think this sentiment is better suited to a Monday than a Friday, but nevertheless, I’m dropping a German proverb on you all today. Loosely translated, it goes something like “what you can accomplish today, don’t put off for tomorrow…” There is an English equivalent, but I’m at a loss to remember it at the [...]
Clowning around…
I’ve had this picture by my desk for at least two weeks, since a friend found it in a book I’d lent him. It’s the late 1980s and my eyes are feverish with the anticipation of buckets-full of candy. I still have a visceral memory of how the polka-dot bowtie smelled strongly of plastic inks [...]
The Tangle.
Margaret has long hair. If you have long hair, you’ll understand that sometimes you suffer from tangles (see image above). Yesterday Margaret had a tangle so magnificent, it deserved its own name (Walter) and possibly its own zip code (The post office hasn’t gotten back to her yet). How, you ask, does one proceed? Her [...]
On asking for help…
Friends, I’m going to level with you, I’m having a dear-diary moment: Do you know what I think of being independent? I think it’s great. I do. I am fiercely independent. So is my mother. I like to carry the heavy bags from the grocery store 20 blocks to my apartment. I like to be [...]
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