ladders

i finally painted again tonight after an almost year-long hiatus of desert-wandering, being stubborn, being fearful and also exploring other crafts and artistic expressions.

this one is called "ladders". i would write a long explanation about the meaning, but russ actually wrote a prose/poem that really gets the feel:
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deep down i still believe
in success and notoriety
so i can't engage work
in freedom, like it's play
and do it because
i love you, because i love it,
no i do it because i let
it define me, and secretly
still believe that if it gets
me noticed i'll be happy.

god forgive me & free me of this stain
its color is deep & rich, but your blood
& sacrifice are richer. wash away the guilt
& shame.
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i also uploaded some new garden pics and am in the process of adding 2 sock-monkey wallets to the etsy shop, if etsy would cooperate. i'll try again tomorrow after work.

-sam